10/12/2007

In Dreams


Last night I dreamed that Kyle recovered from Autism. He could finally talk and he told me what he wanted in life. I was beyond thrilled and so excited to tell everyone about it, more excited about showing him everything his illness had kept him from doing. The most exciting thing was finally being able to tell him how much I cared about him and knowing he understood it. Even more, that he could tell me, too. Oddly, he still had some of his stimming behaviors. Then I woke up and started bawling like I don't think I ever have before. I'd give anything to let you live like the rest of us.